It’s been awhile since I wrote here so I decided that it was time for an update. My last entry was around the beginning of the Spring 2010 semester, and now the Fall 2010 semester is just starting. I am glad to be going back to school, this time around I feel that I am ready to take school seriously. I say that not because I never took college seriously, but after my dad died I had a really hard time putting school high on my list of priorities. During that time I was having a hard time motivating myself to do anything. When I started the Spring semester I felt that I would be able to put my feelings about dad’s death aside for awhile and be the student that I am used to being, but it turned out to not be so easy. I was rather disappointed in myself for the quality of much of my work last semester. I have even found it hard to play golf and guitar in some instances because those were the two things we did when we spent time together. I think I had such a hard time with him dying because I have not had much experience with death in my life. I think my dad’s funeral was only the fourth funeral that I had been to, and only the second for someone related to me.
I felt that this was a good time for me to write about my dad. His birthday just passed, he would have been 43 on the 24th of August. And it is hard for me to believe that it has almost been a year since he died. In a way I am starting to feel “normal” again. I feel that this summer was exactly what I needed to help me in coming to terms with my dad’s death. I got to spend a lot of time with Elizabeth which really helped. Plus spending time together in Europe was amazing. I also got to meet a bunch of new friends that if not for the trip to Europe I probably would not have had the opportunity to get to know.
I guess I wrote this to say thank you. I want to thank those who helped me to move on in life. And if you are in the picture below than you probably helped more than you know. Most importantly I think I want to thank Elizabeth, who helped me so much this summer. And if you are reading this (since I’m relatively certain that only my friends read this) then you more than like me helped me through whether you realize it or not.
